2014

Six minutes until 2014. Six minutes to reflect on 2013.

This past year was for me to grow self-confident. That's what its purpose was. That's how it served me. The most important part of 2013 was working at the summer camp in La Manga for four weeks. I had never felt so happy in just being myself. Now that I've had a taste of what that's like, I want that for good. I want it to keep. Not something I leave behind when summer is over. My month at camp showed me a self-confidence I didn't know was in me. It all started out as a playful risk, and turned into 40 kids' perspectives being shifted. And it was all because I didn't care what anybody else thought. And because I chose not to complain for one moment, but to see the negatives as either opportunities to have a beer on the complainers' tabs or as amusement. Some of that summer camp self-confidence has noticeably faded, but now I know it's there... I know what's possible and I'm willing to go after it this next year.

My biggest obstacle was self-doubt. For 2014, I want that cleaned out for good. Fifteen years is long enough to have carried it with me. I'm ready to thank it for its well meaning attempt at protecting me, and bury it right here in Sweden. This year I saw myself truly shine and I know that the self-doubt isn't truth. Self-doubt in myself, my talents and my relationships. All out.

#12cosasquequieroen2014

Life
1) To dance more.
2) To learn a brand new talent.
3) To live in a tropical place near a beach.

Relationships
4) To always feel respected, adored and important in all close relationships and friendships.
5) To gain a close and diverse network of friends I cherish and can truly be myself around.
6) To have an intellectually stimulating, playful, mature, adventurous, respectful, supportive relationship in which love is freely given and I always feel absolutely adored - and not getting in my own way of it.

Me
7) To write daily Good Things and thrive with a sanguine perspective.
8) To stop comparing myself to others and worrying about others' judgements of me.
9) To always be grateful to be me, to adore me, to be self-confident and to remember to look at my wrist often and smile, knowing.

Career
10) To work with people I respect and enjoy.
11) To be financially responsible and financially comfortable.
12) To have a job where my unique talents are highly valued and appreciated.